wondering why

oh~ my mind keep appearing W.H.Y
is was a BIG QUestion marks floating on my mind~ all day

ms chong quite a trouble for me...
i wondering this gal is really love to hear 'straight wordings'
or i m too insane on my own...
i sure somehow , she felt hurt on my words..
i din blame her.. i just felt she never truely take me as her fren..
like KOSE lipstick case, 2 years ago...
WTF, i should not forget n forgive her ...
well, i really take her as fren on that day...
y i m so unlucky then //\\

God, i shouldnt live with human...
human tat's hurt me.. or i hurt them

Gosh... i shouldnt step forward n nice with her..
and she is not that kind hearted as i thought...
somemore, unreliable colleague

luhchoo, an insane girl, lost faith on colleagues, frens and family...
i m kinda of stupid... like azie pun, i have thousand words to curse her
but i only have one reason to good with her..
i still believe she is a good fren.. indeed, she is not..
What the fuck again on human being... a stupid relationship
a damn lousy relAtionship tighten up with MONEY & POWER & EDUCATION matters
Holly shit i found them ....

i step backwards, wondering a good future sight happen on my eyes..
i shall keep my mouth again... since is really not good to nice with mschong, or any one in WHP
yes, it is.. not worthwith.. i shouldnt shouldnt ...
a millions of should not... behave gal.. zip my mouth and stay away from Ccb.. forever


oh.. another trouble.. i dont have license..
should i be frankly ask anyone for help??
i m just have a bad bad ideas which i m not affordable..

i want to suicide again. it's appearing on my mind....
that's wonderful to leave this human world.. human air...
i cant breath in this world... luhchoo the sucks~

a bloody hell me, jasmine :(