随性

a noon.. whole afternoon confessions...between ccb n mee...
supposed to blog this feeling last nite.. i went to bed and rest..
she was with puffy eyes .. she admitted she cried out in loonely mid nite..
why?? y ??? i could understand how's she feel.. and what was going on?

like wat i had talk to kek, my dearest friend .. friend that i ever found..
even though our mind, thinking and generation were far n long away...
should said, we still keep in touch with good condition.. with no conflict..
coz every time we meet, not more than 25mins.. i was the one who talk at first..
haha... kek was upset and never voice out..

we talked about daniel.. ccb.. from very beginning.. her aim at whp was to take this permanent job, to show off her qualification as a prof QS ..the only success archievement so far~
well, going through all the fucks things within whp matters.. big or small..
from jambi, rough drivers, store keeper, weigher, accounts, lab, .......
from this conversation session, i bet to my self.. must get success~


now she realised one thing... what she wants is not just to show off...
well, what else she could contribute in this company..
but she has NO WAY ... she doesnt know marketing strategy... how to sell whp products..
at last, she was thinking to move out and get all the informations and then back to whp for contributions................................. woow...this idea..was my idea in years back..while amy still my best faithful relationship..

hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ccb n me.. end up were in relationship..

what she said is so true on me... and chai too
i believe no one can change their born characters.. "随性"
if goes on with this , i would just step back...
like a useless human~

hey MOVE IT MOVE IT~~ move FORWARD okay..
hey genious spend more time on ur ideas.. move it move it~

随性, it might a reason why Forest or loone make a right decision...
and now only i realised this.... too late ... too late
wow.. i m not willing to contribute my souls to daniel...
appreciations and blessing are not belongs to me yet~

what've i done to daniel so far.....7months passed..........
SUCKsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss choooooooo